So it’s probably somewhat apparent, but we (as in I) had some technical difficulties. Let this be a lesson to you: Don’t do WordPress upgrades when you are unable to sit up. Because then, something breaks, and then, you break it further because you can’t sit up and think and fix it correctly.
And as luck would have it, once I reinstall and wipe things down again, I figure out what the problem was. Hindsight, problems, feeling stupid — ah, the little things that make life worthwhile.
Speaking of figuring out problems and hindsight and other stupidity — we have nailed down the organ system that’s broken. Well, jeez, now, that didn’t take too long, did it? Six years? Piece of friggin’ cake. Actually, I can’t say that. Wait, yes I can.
So here’s the deal — there is, as yet, no diagnosis. They’re going to have to do testing to try to nail down what variety of disorder it is, and perhaps, if it’s possible, figure out what’s messed it all up. There’s also the distinct possibility it isn’t going to fit in any category, or that the root of the evil isn’t going to be apparent.
Seems there is a problem in my hypothalamus, where my autonomic nervous system lives. I’ve got some form of dysautonomia. The autonomic nervous system is that lovely little bit that controls the function of all your involuntary organs and involuntary processes that you don’t give two figs about until they break. Mostly your heart rate and blood pressure get screwed up, but many dysautonomias mess up other organs. Problems tend to relapse, remit, or not always leave and come in any number of combinations. They shift, they get better, they get worse, and they don’t tend to be obvious on tests. If end results aren’t treated, they can cause damage over the long haul. They aren’t usually fatal, but you don’t want to inflict long term damage on yourself, either.
They aren’t uncommon, but they aren’t common, and they don’t always suck as badly as mine tends to like to suck. I always said it would feel like someone turned up the gravity. Ironically, that’s kind of accurate. Standing causes blood pooling, and blood pooling makes your head heavy. They are hard to catch because doctors tend to think patients with transient stuff going on are nutjobs. No way.
By and large, they aren’t the easiest things to manage, but they can be managed. I don’t expect I’ll ever feel great, but I am reasonably hopeful that I can feel better. I hope so. This is now incredibly old.